~ 9/06/2005 10:23:00 PM ~
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
[how do u study?]
I reaLly wonder.....
After 10 over years of schooling, homework, tests and exams, i still haven't been able to figure how to study effectively in short periods of time!!!
ok.. what i mean short period of time is.. to sit down without being fidgety and be able to understand what exactly you're reading or doing.
and that, i can't do... i take days to finish a chapter of whatever which others complete in 2 or 3 hours..
i wonder.. just what is the magic or trick behind this amazing quick-minded-processing power which other people have but i don't??
why is it that i take days to understand simple concepts and probably forever for harder thoeries??
maybe it's because i'm stupid? is it because my brain cannot function above my average functions of just being able to remind me when it is time for my tv programmes, daily meals and simple everyday matters, or it just refuses to do so??
i wish to believe that somewhere deep within me, there's this super-wonder me that's waiting to surface.. but hasn't been given the opportunity to do so.. is there really?? reality says that so what if there is.. it's no use unless it surfaces now.. if not ur future is just "yi pian hei an"..
yup.. that's what i think.. and that's what's put infront of me.. used to be so.. and is still so now..
why is it that society needs us to study? more realistic people would accept it and probably even like doing it.. making it their goals in their life..
as for me.. i dread studying.. i hate wrecking my brains for something i cannot understand and don't like...
wouldn't it be just heavenly to be able to be free as i spread my wings and fly in any direction i like to? maybe i could stay home all day.. and instead of just watching tv.. i could be writting letters to all my friends.. or making cards or simple little creations just of my very own..
or i could take up lessons on modern dance such as my favourite hip-hop and go professional and probably have plenty of chances to perform together with stars like JJ !!
or take up a new sport.. i think i could do well in terms with my own ability.. but probably nowhere near pro...anyhow, i'd be more willing for my brain to wreck in physical sense then intelligence sense..
so can i not study please??? it's very stressful!!! the only solution i can think of is to study hard... but then again this adds to the stress because i also cannot study and therefore am unable to do much to improve the situation!!!!
help anyone??
